Posted by Lindenblüte on October 5, 2006, at 8:38:46
In reply to Re: Read my own posts? Never » Lindenblüte, posted by Jost on October 4, 2006, at 23:04:22
Hi Jost,
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now. Please try to remember that you have so many excellent qualities, and so many unique corners of your mind. I know that it's hard to hear people say nice stuff about you whenever you are feeling really down on yourself, but I have a LOT of nice things that I can about you that are not merely nice, but they are actually honest and real.For you to place all of your eggs in one basket (employment and occupation) and neglect to appreciate the entire Jost- well- I think it's a tragedy. Ultimately, I think you realize that you're not feeling well, but you also need to realize the extent to which the big D has poisoned your own mind against you. Jost, you DO have a sense of self-worth that remains untainted, but you are not allowed to express it freely. Please try to listen to all of your feelings, not just the really loud, really ugly ones. The little pip-squeek in the corner has something important to say too!
When people tell you that you are an important, valued part of their life-- don't dismiss it immediately. Try your hardest to integrate that message with the part of you that is resisting the big D. When I tell you that you are so very supportive of me in this time of anxiety about my future in psychopharmacology-- DON'T dismiss it! Maybe you tell yourself that "anyone" could have told Li about pharm. The truth is that "anyone" hasn't spoken to me as loudly and clearly as you have. The truth is that I've been doing a lot of research in the past few weeks, and it's all very confusing. To hear Jost's personal experiences-- untainted by conflict-of-interest or statistical significance or axes to grind... Well, it is incredibly valuable to me. I thank you VERY much.
So, if you haven't done anything else worth patting your back over in the last 24 hours, just know that you've opened my mind, and you've made my visit to pdoc and possibly my ongoing treatment a lot easier to tolerate.
your friend,
-LiLi is gradually giving up on separating independent clauses with the standard punctuation. split infinitives, comma splicing and all that jazz. adds color, you know? I wonder if you are as harshly judgmental of my grammar as you are of your own. I KNOW how to use it, Jost, but I'm lazy. :)
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