Posted by Blonde Bomb on September 12, 2006, at 15:09:09
Well, the village sure found its idiot today!
In a situation that could and should have been a a positive professional move for me, I used bad judgment at an event attended by colleagues and peers and made a slip up that has, no doubt, compromised my integrity.
To what degree, I don't know. How many people are or will be aware of my faux pas, I'll be the last to find out. How much will the negative consequences impact me, it's hard to say.
All I do know is that the very little bit of gain I 'cunningly' garnered was NOT worth it and I just wish I could go back and undo it all!
Just when I think I've got it all together and my life is on a reliable, even keel, I have to beat myself up with questions of 'Why did I use such poor judgment?', 'Why, at my age, am I still capable of doing such stupid things?', and 'Will I EVER grow up?!'
The self loathing is incredible.
All I can do at this point is confess my sin (thanks for listening!), try to forgive myself, and learn from my mistake. . . once again.
Blonde Bomb
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