Posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
after reading some people's posts? I often am. I guess I make my fair share of those posts myself.... seems I have confused a few people today.
A similar thing happens to me in a way in therapy, my T makes a comment, and only when I return home do I think "ugh, what was he meaning" and I make up all sorts of negative scenarios in my mind,..... that he doesn't like me, that he hates me, that he never wants to talk to me again...........one thing though. I have never felt a therapist does not believe me. So that is good :D
With doctors? A different story. I have caught many doctors in black and "abusive" lies so I don't really care a .......... what they think of me. They are no help anyway apart from as pen pushers and med prescribers.
blech
butterflyPS I only see the T very rarely at present due to lack of funds. That might well be changing soon though. Might keep you updated (depending on lots of things, my trust levels mostly) I will have to find a new T though sigh.
ll - if you are reading this. A thought re "honesty".... sometimes details might be changed slightly on the internet for privacy reasons (obvious) and also if unsettled by certain dynamics. I don't expect this makes much sense so I will stop here. You are very perceptive though although you don't know me well :p
Posting here is risky for me.... posting anywhere is risky. I know there are some who judge and enjoy doing so..... not here, just in life. As for automatic thoughts of being judged? I have those but not so much as I used to. I will never understand some people however much I try, so I have to learn to accept and let go.... hard for me!
This post will be here for ever........lovely thought. heh.
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