Posted by TexasChic on June 11, 2006, at 4:57:31
In reply to Re: OMG! I sent him THE email! » llrrrpp, posted by TexasChic on June 10, 2006, at 17:19:34
I keep waking up at 4:30 feeling all jumpy and like I HAVE to get out of bed. Its the time I usually get up for work, but I never just wake up at that time. I guess its because of everything going around in my head.
I know if I hadn't said anything I would have always wondered. I guess part of me expected a response of some sort, even a negative one. So now I have to go through life with no response to such a daring admission. I told myself over and over it was very unlikely I'd get a response. But I keep checking my email.
I know by now he had to have read it. I still don't know why he didn't say goodbye or get back with me when he knew I was upset about it. His behavior the whole last week was out of character. To me it seems like he must be mad about something. Or else he knew how I felt and couldn't figure out how else to get rid of me. I wish my friend who knows him would write back and give me some insight.
I guess I just have to remind myself that I took a chance and did something daring instead of sitting back and wondering what might have happened. And no matter how ill advised or stupid, it was still a big step for me. I know its what I needed to do for me. But its still scary.
All I know is I HAVE to get another job now.
-T
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