Posted by capricorn on April 25, 2006, at 9:47:50
Woke up about 11.OO in (for me) a good frame of mind. Logged into a MH forum to find myself being brought to task by another poster.
It was undeserved and uncalled for but for most people it
would be like swiping away an irksome gnat.
Not me though now i'm alternating between anger and paranoia and hurt
and guilt and anxiety- wanting to lash out, wanting to run and hide and shut myself off.Damn f***ing post keeps going round and round in my f***ing head.Part of me thinks 'f**k the moronic w***ker i was only trying to be
helpful'. Another part's thinking 'You shouldn't post 'informational'
stuff Tim.People don't want that kind of thing.They want more 'social' posts and you are f**king useless at that aren't you Tim?'It's hard to keep a hold on rationality at times like this.It's like your intellect's being sucked try by some fecking Alien and you've become a cross between the village idiot and a dysphoric version of 'Here's Johnny'
Reactivity ? You can shove it up Dubya's f***ing *rse and send him to hell with it.---
poster:capricorn
thread:636889
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20060422/msgs/636889.html