Posted by ghostshadow on January 9, 2006, at 12:17:02
In reply to Re: ugly black pit » ghostshadow, posted by muffled on January 9, 2006, at 11:37:17
i,m just so very, very tired. i'm 44 years old and have literally been depressed since before i even started grade school. parents divorced when i was at the age when little girls want just their daddies, and mine went away. and my life has been nothing but a downward spiral since. tons and tons of psych/verbal abuse. some sexual abuse, including rape. lost my mom just out of high school - never got to ask her why she didn't love me. first son murdered just over 22 years ago. he was only two. tried to get therapy afetr he was killed, but three different people told me that i was coping just fine and they either didn't feel i needed help or didn't think they could benefit me. survived on my own until i had to go back to work after my second son was born in '95 - panic attacks and depression. therapy and meds, doing much better. husband complaining, but i kept going anyway. husband kept complaining, saying cost too much and therapy didn't seem to be helping (but he wasn't in my head), so to keep the peace i quit going and let regular physician takes over meds. did okay with just increases for quite a while, but everything just fell apart this autumn/winter.
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