Posted by Deneb on December 23, 2005, at 2:33:33
Whenever I see other people get blocked, it reminds me of when i was blocked and it makes me upset.
I'm thinking of an evil thought right now.
I want to say that if I ever get blocked again, I'll kill myself to get revenge.
I think I'm one of those people who will kill themselves in prison.
I think I would rather die than be locked up.
I hate that blocking is like prison for me.
I don't think people will like me very much if I kill myself because I don't like being blocked.
I don't think I ever learned to accept punishments. I never got punished when I was little.
I wonder if I really will kill myself over something so trivial. Anyways, I'm risking my life my participating here sometimes.
I think people might not like me saying these things.
I know nothing and no one can make me kill myself, but I still have those bad thoughts of revenge.
I know it doesn't make sense. My being dead doesn't hurt Dr. Bob. I'll be the ultimate loser.
But, what if, what if I get so upset that I really do it? I don't trust myself when it comes to intense emotions.
I better come back as a ghost.
Deneb
poster:Deneb
thread:591511
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20051215/msgs/591511.html