Posted by phil on November 2, 2005, at 19:32:50
I've had manic episodes in my life but only one, a couple of years ago, happened while seeing a pdoc.
I left work one afternoon after just breaking down in front of, or to, a coworker. Not good. It wasn't pretty.
Went straight to my doc and she added Zyprexa to my cocktail immediately-gave me a few to take right then.
She wrote a note to my work that I would need three to four months off.
She sends me home w/ my new script and within two days I was manic. Total switch. It lasted for a month. I went crazy doing stuff to my yard and a neighbors yard. You name a type of yardwork and I was doing it-sunup to sundown. Using muscles that hadn't been used in years. Worked so hard that I could hardly move after cooling down. I was m o t i v a t e d!!
Shopping at Lowe's Home Depot and others, I spent more money than I would ever be able to repay. That led to a bankruptcy. Whoops!
The whole point of this is that I really miss the mania. I was so at peace and energized by it all--even though there were some costs to pay for that ride.
I'm on meds now that have stopped the mania cold(I'm flatter than a pancake)but the depression is still there..relentless.
..........One of these days I'll be happy. Somewhere down the line...you know? I wish that for us all.
Phil
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