Posted by JenStar on October 16, 2005, at 14:00:00
In reply to the darkness in fear, posted by rjlockhart98 on October 15, 2005, at 21:18:42
I don't think you're insane. I think you sound like you DO have extremely deep anxiety about "life" in general, and I am so sympathetic to you.
I also suffer from anxiety and I think I understand something of that deep relentless biting nameless FEAR that you feel at times.
I think anxiety can drive people to do "crazy" things to try and stop it. They say (the ubiquitous "they"!!!) that experiencing pain on ONE area of the body makes you forget about pain in ANOTHER part. So maybe that's where the smashing phone/etc. comes from (?) -- maybe you're just so sick of the fear, that you try to do something else, anything else, to feel another emotion (anger, rage) and forget about the fear for a while?
I'm so sorry you're going thru this. And I'm sorry your mom is not in a place to help you. I'm glad that you're seeing doctors and trying to get help. Stay strong - it WILL get better! :) It really will.
Don't worry about the names of drugs, or the supposed stigma attached. Try what is recommended, and take what you need, whether it be lithium, thorazine (ha) or others. You'll be OK in the end. Give yourself time.
I know that probably wsn't too helpful, and I'm sorry, b/c I wish I could help. But I'm thinking of you and hoping you're ok!
take care!
JenStar
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