some current thinking on BPD - Deneb

Posted by NikkiT2 on October 15, 2005, at 7:46:30

In reply to Deneb: suicidal ideation **Trigger**, posted by holymama on October 15, 2005, at 7:13:03

I can't find the exact post where you posted the stats of how many people with BPD commit suicide.
Current thinking on that area isn't that 9% commit suicide, its that 9% die. Its thought that a substantial number of those people *weren't* meaning to die. It was self harm gone wrong.. ie, they self harmed (eg, by taking an over dose that they didn't think was large enough to kill them) but ended up dying.
It skews the stats, as they are still recorded as suicide most of the time.
Deneb, my "preferred" method of self harm, nearly always to punish myself for something, was taking over doses that wren't enough to kill me, but enough to make me ill.. I never reported to ospital with these, and I'm lucky to now be alive. BUT, I know deal daily with stomach problems and bowel problems caused by this, my liver function is "borderline", and I can't take ANY oral pain killers any more. Thanks to my over doses, I can't even take pain killers for the severe, chronic pain I suffer from nerve damage in my arm.
Can you imagine getting one of those bad, nasty head aches and not being able to take anything for them? Getting flu and not being able to take anything for the fever and aches and pains?
A "mini overdose" as I always called them can be dangerous, long term.. just because they dont kill, it doesnt mean that they#re not doing nasty damage.
If you wanted to just go and do it, you would.. By posting here you are trying to find, how ever subconciously, a means to stop yourself.. Let us help you stop this behaviour..
I hope you went to the hospital. They are there to help you.. Tell them you are wanting to take an over dose.. just that.. simple.. tell them you are siffering from suicidal ideation.. Find the crisis line for your psychiatric services and CALL THEM.. (And dont tell us tere isn't one for you..)
Nikki xx

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Need to understand triggers and suicide Deneb 10/13/05
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I'm sure your parents would rather see you in » Deneb crazy teresa 10/15/05
Re: Why won't you get help? Deneb 10/15/05
At least call them and see what they have to say. (nm) » Deneb crazy teresa 10/15/05
Dial 411 and ask for the # to any suicide hotline. (nm) » crazy teresa crazy teresa 10/15/05
If you want to tell me where you are I will get it (nm) crazy teresa 10/15/05
They will think you need someone to talk to. (nm) » Deneb crazy teresa 10/15/05
Re: Need to understand triggers and suicide » ClearSkies alexandra_k 10/15/05
Re: CLARIFICATION Alexandra » rainbowbrite alexandra_k 10/15/05
Re: You DON'T Need to understand triggers » JenStar alexandra_k 10/15/05
Re: Why won't you get help? » Deneb Nickengland 10/15/05
Re: Why won't you get help?Deneb Nickengland 10/15/05
Deneb: suicidal ideation **Trigger** holymama 10/15/05
some current thinking on BPD - Deneb NikkiT2 10/15/05
very frustrated » alexandra_k rainbowbrite 10/15/05
Re: very frustrated » rainbowbrite Nickengland 10/15/05
Thank you NIck! » Nickengland rainbowbrite 10/15/05
Thank you too, you're welcome :-) (nm) » rainbowbrite Nickengland 10/15/05
Re: very frustrated » rainbowbrite crazy teresa 10/15/05
I'm safe...Mom is home all day (nm) Deneb 10/15/05
Did you call? Did you talk to your mom? (nm) » Deneb crazy teresa 10/15/05
To rainbowbrite, why I got angry at you Deneb 10/15/05
Why I didn't reply to you » Nickengland Deneb 10/15/05
To Deneb- please DNP to me *or* about me » Deneb rainbowbrite 10/15/05
Re: very frustrated » crazy teresa rainbowbrite 10/15/05
deneb crazy teresa 10/15/05
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Re: Why won't you get help? » alesta alesta 10/20/05

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