Posted by holymama on October 14, 2005, at 9:59:56
In reply to Re: You DON'T Need to understand triggers » AuntieMel, posted by ClearSkies on October 14, 2005, at 9:22:25
Deneb,
I have three little kids -- 4,5 and 7. I love them with every bone of my body and want to watch them grow up and I want to be a healthy role model for them so that they can have an easier time through their lives.
I do NOT want them to find my dead body and mourn the loss of not having a mother for the rest of their lives and use my example as their own when they run into trouble -- "well, mom did it when times were hard, so it's always an option for me..."
Suicidal feelings are something I BATTLE, not embrace. I feel them intensely when I am really depressed but when I come out of a depression I feel as though I have won the battle by not killing myself.
I think that most people here feel the same way about suicide, so for someone to speak lightly about it is painful and scary for most of us. We want to get away from it, even though our illnesses force us close.
I understand Deneb that you are only trying to understand, not being uncivil. Can you understand that it would be really painful for me to see jokes about suicide here on this site when I (and a lot of others here) am fighting with all of my strength to fight that 'monster' and stay with my babies?
You should see my babies, Deneb. They are too beautiful for words. If you saw them, I think you would understand.
~Autumn~
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