Posted by TexasChic on October 10, 2005, at 16:29:29
In reply to Re: Okay, I have a couple of social events coming up.., posted by Angela2 on October 9, 2005, at 19:26:55
Its not as bad as it used to be. I usually start freaking out on the day of the event. But once I get there I'm usually okay. I just wish I could do things without going over a million scenerios in my head first of how it may turn out. Sometimes my mind just won't shut up.
Today at work I got to see this guy my new friends want me to meet that's going to be at the party. Not too shabby! I have to say though, if I ever got asked on a date, that's when my anxiety would really go through the roof. (See, I'm already worrying about something that hasn't happened yet). I've never really been out on an actual date before. I spent so many years in the debts of depression, that I just never allowed myself to be in that type of situation. I feel like I missed out on my 20's. Its like now I'm doing all the stuff I would have done then. I think that's why I keep being drawn to younger guys (like 'cute boy').
Speaking of 'cute boy', I've been noticing that he's started parking near me at work and waits until I get out of the car and then walks with me to the door. At least, that's how it seems. I could be totally wrong. I get such mixed messages from him. Of course he's who I would really like to hook up with at the party, but its good to have a backup just incase he brings a date! I'm trying to prepare myself for that possibility. Damn, that would suck.
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