Posted by Thomasin on August 16, 2005, at 9:36:05
In reply to I feel another genuine nervous breakdown approach, posted by AdaGrace on August 15, 2005, at 23:47:51
Hi Ada Grace,
I do hate that feeling when you know it's coming and you can't stop it. While I do get crying jags as well, what I hate is the feeling of retreating further and further into myself so that I can't seem to be in the world. It's almost a physical pain, trying to talk to people and it's like I really lose my ablity to understand English in a way. People close to me now know that when I get this way I'm not going to be answering the phone and If I do, I'm only going to be able to stand talking for a minute.
I hate watching them all feel so helpless too. They seem to think there's something they could say that would lift me out of it and bring back the usually cheerful,even-keeled woman who was replaced by this close-mouthed, irritable, hermit.There isn't. I find it just has to work it's way through me. I find that if I say to myself, ok, it's gonna happen whether you want it to or not, you lived through it many times, this one's no different,just breathe and hide, then usually, well,it doesn't go away but, if I don't fight it it seems like it doesn't last as long...Does anyone else notice that? Maybe it's that the energy and angst spent trying to avoid the unavoidable winds up prolonging it..I dunno, AdaGrace, it will pass...
poster:Thomasin
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