Posted by Emily Elizabeth on July 26, 2005, at 9:01:33 [reposted on July 26, 2005, at 23:49:27 | original URL]
In reply to Against the wall, posted by Jimmy Go on July 25, 2005, at 22:38:02
I'm glad that you are feeling better today. I think one of the most powerful ways that I talk myself out of killing myself is to think of how my loved ones would react. No matter how unloved you feel now, suicide would be very cruel to your family. Suicide is so destructive to the people in your life. It is very, very hard to heal from someone's suicide, especially a parent. Think about the faces of your loved ones and the devastation and tears. Think of all of the important events you will miss (graduations, weddings, grandchildren) and how sad they will be that you aren't there.
Also, insurance almost never pays death benefits if the death is by suicide. They do it for the very reason that you mention. They don't want people killing themselves "for their families."
I hope that you can find a way to live for yourself, but in the meantime, do it for your family.
Take care,
EE> I applied for Social Security disability today. I am so embarrased to have to do this but now I've hurt my family and may lose everything. I'm sure they will not approve my claim because mental illness is hard to prove and not taken very seriously. They probably think I'm a deadbeat. I feel worthless.I can't keep a job. Get fired after a few days or weeeks everytime. My family would be better off without me. My insurance will provide financial stability for a long time. I've been on Effexor XR for about 2 years. I'm up to 150 mg and may have to increase to 300 mg. I lost our first homeplace and it broke my children's hearts. There are many worse things than death I'm sure. My biological parents abandoned me and my brothers and sisters when I was four. I hope my children don't think I want to abandon them. They act like they hate me. I have been a failure. They don't need me anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore.
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