Posted by Shy_Girl on May 11, 2005, at 22:08:55
I don't know who I am...
I would like to think of myself as a good person, but sometimes I don't act or feel like it. I'm feeling the anger again. I feel like being sarcastic, vengeful...angst-ridden basically. I feel such horrible things.I feel like my death needs to make a point...I want to die for a cause. (Now why can't I want to LIVE for a cause??) It sounds horribly insensitive, but I almost want my death to be sensational...an easy way to change the world. I don't want to make "gestures" either...I want to go all the way the first time I do it. I want to be an exception to the statistics (the men/women ratio). I want people to see that I'm not your typical gal...I mean business.
Argh...why am I feeling this again? This anger...where the heck does it come from?
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:496681
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