Posted by Larry Hoover on May 10, 2005, at 15:28:21
In reply to Re: a walk-in clinic in canada - ***trigger***, posted by Shy_Girl on May 10, 2005, at 15:12:45
> I don't know about the clinic thing anymore...the thing is, I had a pdoc. She's on maternity leave right now. She knew about my instability and suicidal ideations.
You've upped it considerably, from suicidal ideation.
> I've told her that I was worried about accidentally killing myself because sometimes I feel out of control. She said that she doesn't think I will kill myself because I have some protective factors...like not having a substance abuse problem. She told me that she's never had a patient kill him/herself.
What other patients have or have not done is not relevant.
> I've asked about other meds too, she doesn't think they are right for me.
Let me ask you this. Are you comfortable with having these sorts of episodes, where you buy a rope and handle it? Where you speak as if your future is irrelevant? That isn't a moment like standing at Baskin-Robbins and not knowing which flavour to select.
> I just don't know what to think...maybe I should trust her that I won't kill myself...she has more experience than I do in prediction.
You have more experience in your own mind and body. Your language is revealing. You must trust *yourself* that you will not kill yourself, not her.
> Maybe I should just trust her that I don't need any other meds as well...after all, she's the expert, not me.
She's on maternity leave, and doesn't know about this recent stuff.
> Maybe I need to get a second opinion, I'm not sure.
What could it hurt, to get another objective opinion?
Really, your doctor on maternity leave is not available for your current care requirements. You need to get someone who is available, and understands your current situation.
Lar
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