Posted by PM80 on April 14, 2005, at 15:17:38
In reply to Am I a horrible person?????, posted by woolav on April 14, 2005, at 13:46:30
You are not a horrible person.
Talking to your husband and perhaps getting his help in setting up a babysitter may make you feel a little better about. It seems like you feel that have ALL the responsibility for this 4 year old when his dad ought to help you. Is your husband aware that this takes a toll on you? Two weeks every other month isn't that bad even if you do have to suck it up then. BUT, some of this feeling may actually be depression. It may sound odd, but I definitely HATE when I don't get all my expected free time when I am depressed, even if all I have planned is staring at the wall. It is an angry, frustrated feeling of losing comtrol or feeling that you do not have control - of your life, of your emotions, of a specific part of your life, of whatever. This may be a good thing to bring up in therapy eventually. You sound like you have a healthy relationship with your daughter and husband. Your resentment towards this boy is probably something else altogether (some sort of transference). DO you feel taken advantage of by your husband and underappreciated? General lack of support? I would guess there is more here that meets the eye and it has nothing to do with you being a bad person.
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