Posted by TamaraJ on March 13, 2005, at 16:42:15
In reply to Re: I did :) » TamaraJ, posted by All Done on March 11, 2005, at 14:30:05
> Thanks for asking, Tamara! As I anticipated, I had a really nice time and there was absolutely nothing to dread. (I highly recommend a 90-minute massage followed by excellent Italian food ;).)
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-- I got a SPA gift certificate for Christmas, and still haven't quite made up my mind what to use it for, but a massage would be nice. The place does hot stone massages, so that might be something different to try.> I planned to meet my friend in the afternoon immediately after my therapy session. So, I talked a little bit about the dread with my T. There was other stuff I talked about first, which didn't leave much time, but he wants to know more about what I'm feeling and when I'm feeling it. He seemed to agree that it's part of depression which, at times, may be lifting for me but at others is still there. I suppose, like everything, it's a process.
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-- I, too, think it may be a symptom of depression. I have found that since I started nortriptyline over a week ago the dread isn't as pervasive as it had been. I hope that it lifts completely for you really soon. It's certainly a weird and unnerving feeling :-(> I can completely relate to what you said earlier about worrying that the dread has become a part of me. My T often refers things that might "just" be a part of my character. I hope this isn't one of them.
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-- Oh Laurie, I don't think you have to worry about it "just" being a part of your character. If it was, I would think that it really wouldn't be that disturbing a feeling - you would have grown used to it (if that makes sense). I certainly don't think you are a Ziggy or a Shleprock by nature :-).
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> And what you said about saying no...don't even get me started. I've always bent over backwards for everyone. Everyone but myself, that is. I didn't even know what a boundary was before I started therapy. I hope you can learn to give good care, compassion, and nurturing to yourself. You deserve it :).
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-- "No" is so hard to say. What was that song "Sorry seems to be the Hardest Word"? I think someone needs to write a song "No seems to be a next to impossible word" :-) I'm sure eventually we'll both get to a point where we have achieved a balance and are able to assertively establish healthy boundaries.You take good care of yourself Laurie. Wishing you nothing but happiness and fulfillment, which you deserve :-)
Tamara
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