Posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 16:42:53
In reply to Re: What mood am I in?, posted by sunny10 on February 1, 2005, at 15:18:02
> Glad to hear you. Tell your courier son to go get you some meds while he's lost next time (hee hee)...
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> I'm usually quite happy to be able to laugh and be mad at the same time, and only one out of four pdocs have labelled me BP...
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> But the bursts of energy/ideas I get are always totally self-destructive and NEVER happy/top-of-the-world feelings like yours...I guess I can understand why YOU might be eager to go through them, but for me, I know that the more energy that I get with the hypomania; the harder and deeper I fall. It scares me.
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> Sorry for transferring my own fears to you. Guess I only do that when I'm fond of people...
sunnyI never claimed that there is no self-destructiveness in my hypomania because there always is. I try to fight off the compulsion to engage and just go with the euphoria itself, that's if it manifests itself as euphoria, usually it's irritability and hostility and with that I have very little if any self-control. I lash out at people. My son calls me *wild*. My family has learned to not get in my way and engage in an argument with me because they won't win and I'll only spin out of control. And like you, I crash afterwards too.
Update: My meds were delivered, I took both my ADs that I ran out of yesterday but now, what to eat? I'm thinking pizza. Who cares that I can't afford it. It's my favourite food and I haven't had it in a very long time and I haven't eaten anything at all today, I'm STARVED!!!
AG
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