Posted by saw on January 27, 2005, at 2:34:17
In reply to Re: anyone up in the wee hours of the day like i am???, posted by shellybelle911 on January 27, 2005, at 1:56:50
Oh my goodness, you have been through a lot. And you have a potentially stressful job to boot. Doesn't it stress you even more if you get a traumatic call?
You know, I hear a great deal of strength in your post despite all that you have been through and are presently trying to deal with. (I have just dealt with my swollen eyes by eating a chocolate!)
I suffered a great deal of physical, mental and verbal abuse from my ex husband and much mental abuse from subsequent relationships. I am now married to a wonderful man who supports me but does not always understand. Just last night he was really mean and sarcastic about me and my suicidal tendencies.
All the abuse has most certainly left me shell shocked and there are many areas that are too painful to delve into and sort out. So I leave them buried for now. I hated believing that I deserved to be treated the way I did, that I was no good anyway. One of my bigger issues I guess.
And you have been through this with two husbands? Never mind all the other abuse. I feel for you Michelle. It could not have been easy coming to terms with all that (if one ever does), confronting it and trying to live with it.
I, too, post from work almost everyone is asleep when I'm active - so it would be good to have someone on line with me.
I am happy to support you. I listen good too! (I think)
Sabrina
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