Posted by Angel Girl on January 25, 2005, at 0:47:46
In reply to What Does It Mean ***Loads fo Triggers***, posted by AdaGrace on January 24, 2005, at 18:05:31
AG
I don't know you but I do know about self-destruction. I do that very well, maybe not in the same way you do but I do it just the same. You say you don't hate yourself. Then why do you think you do this self-destructive behavior? See, I do hate myself, I loathe my very being and I don't think I deserve anything and I'm sure that's why I've been in self-destruct mode for years. If you don't hate yourself, do you not think that maybe you must at least have an extremely low self-esteem? I don't know the right things to say to you since I'm very self destructive too but I will urge you to talk to your T about this and your pdoc. Maybe your T can help you to discover why you engage in self-destructive behavior and help you to start turning it around. I think maybe it might start by trying to love yourself, something that is probably hard for you to do. I know I haven't even begun to master it myself. I think that maybe you've hated yourself for so long that it just seems normal to you now and you don't recognize it as such. I'm not putting you down in the least, just offering suggestions of what might be going on by comparing yourself to me. Again, I urge you to talk to your T and pdoc and get help. Please, please take care of yourself. Hugs.
Another AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:446991
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