Posted by lostforwards on December 20, 2004, at 22:06:43
In reply to How are you doing? » lostforwards, posted by alexandra_k on December 20, 2004, at 14:48:19
alexandra_k! I'm still around. I'm glad I haven't freaked you out.
Have you ever heard that song by the cars? I don't even know the name of it. I guess you're just what I needed...something like that. I think I just need a really good aphrodisiac that'll stop me from thinking and keep me loving. Right now I'm going through hell. I made some stupid mistake, I think it was thinking too much, getting paranoid, and not losing myself in other people enough. I've lost myself a few times. They're trying to kill me, I think. I wish I could turn things around. I wish I could be some other place, surrounded by something nice, warm and cozy. Unfortunately I'm all alone in this empty appartment with very few connections. I'm slowly going crazy, and my father is trying to kill me. In a figurative sense. He keeps coughing and gagging everytime I start to fall for someone. I'm not beating around the bush. I'm serious. It sucks.
I think I might find someone to talk to about these experiences, maybe they could help me. I'd really like to find a really good psychiatrist. I'm not talking about being social either. I mean good psychiatrist who knows the ins and outs of everything and isn't afraid to consider the effects of experience on brain chemistry and the development of mental illness.
So far, all I've ever had is ( mostly - though there is one who I wouldn't throw in this catagory, but still don't find very helpful ) prescription writers.
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