Posted by AdaGrace on October 17, 2004, at 22:50:33
You know the funny thing is for years I have yearned to be left alone for a few hours a day.
I haven't been able to take a bath or do anything remotely personal for several years without the kids or my husband barging in. And yet now, when I do get those moments or even hours alone, I get so utterly lonely and don't know what to do with myself. I have no desire for self-love so to speak and reading makes me so sad because everyone seems to get what they want in books or in movies. I just don't know what to do with myself, not Martha Stewart or Betty Crocker and really pissed at everyone who is not helping me clean the house so I refuse to do it as well. The help I got after the accident lasted a whole week afterall and then we all went back to normal. Forgetting that Mommy brings home the bacon and works more hours than @#$$%%^^%% face. Women are just expected to do and smile while they do.
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