Posted by cubic_me on October 16, 2004, at 17:15:42
In reply to PS re getting through this time » cubic_me, posted by Fi on October 16, 2004, at 16:49:16
Thankyou so much everyone, for just being there, and caring. It means so much. I'm sorry I haven't the energy (or the privicy) to write to everyone - the party is in our shared house, and there are so many people that they have spread to my room and beyond.
I went downstairs a few times, once I'm there it's ok, but socialising seems so pointless. My costume is causing much amusement, so I don't have to say much for people to be interacting with me! I have to make sure my boobs stay in my kinky bra and my fishnet stockings don't fall down, so that keeps my mind occupied...!
A few of my friends haven't arrived yet, nor has my boyfriend, houseparties here usually go on til 3 or 4am, but I definatly won't be partying til then.
Don't worry about me doing anything to myself right now, I'm not quite at that point, just the thought is going round and round in my mind and driving me mad, as is wanting to cut and not being able to cry :(
It's lonely here
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