Posted by Dinah on October 12, 2004, at 8:12:09
In reply to Re: Thank you for the support Falls and » Dinah, posted by Fi on October 10, 2004, at 14:25:20
Bad maybe, but not suicidal.
Let's see. My parents didn't make me furious yesterday, so I had a respite from constant adrenaline surges.
My mom broke the two day lead time rule, and I did what she asked anyway. So I was a bit angry with her and with me. But I reminded her of the rule and told her she lucked out this time, which dissipated the anger a bit. Unfortunately, I did it in front of the person they hired to help around the house AND the physical therapist, so I probably came across as cold, but oh well...
It also embarassed me to see her being herself. Ordering the poor woman around in her usual nitpicking way that has more to do with her revelling in having power than it does with actual comments on the work. She looooves having employees. But I managed to say the mantra I developed as a child. "I am not my mother. People realize that I am not my mother. What she does is what she does, not what I do. People know that."
I hope that mantra's true. :(
I got out of the house to the office yesterday, which forced me into work mode at least a bit. And gave me a few hours to not miss Harry on my lap or next to me on the bed.
Oh, and I didn't have a full fledged migraine, just a mild optical migraine.
And today I really need to get something out ASAP, so that's occupying part of my mind.
If my parents don't keep reopening the wounds, at least for a few days, maybe just maybe I'll be able to regain some resiliency.
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