Psycho-Babble Social | for general support | Framed
This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | List of forums | Search | FAQ

Social anxiety or antisocial?

Posted by partlycloudy on September 19, 2004, at 9:40:30

This is our first storm-threat-free weekend in over a month. I had grandiose plans to do nothing, go nowhere, watch no tv, maybe cook if I felt like it, just revel in not being in battle-ready position.

My father in law is visiting. He's a lovely old guy with a big heart. Nothing seems to please him and he's either too cold, too warm, too hungry, too stuffed, well... you get it. I take it personally because I think I go out of my way to make guests comfortable.

When he has the TV blasting a football game I'm not the least bit interested in, and the stereo playing jazz I don't like, then sits in the good reading chair with a book and commences to fall asleep - well, I can't take it. I get in a very very bad mood. I want to go back in my closet and have a cocktail. I want to smoke myself silly and not be aware of my surroundings. I lose my temper and yell at silly things. I feel trapped in my home and want to escape with any chemical help I can find.

Our condo is being tented on Monday for termites, so today we have to double-bag any consumables in the house and we have to check into a hotel for 2 days. I can't even bag up food without getting into a frenzy. Everything makes me angry, I just want to run away and be by myself, but then I'd probably complain about being alone.

Why can't I just chill? Why do I get so angry at what I perceive to be these intrusions into what I'd hoped would be a restful, restorative weekend? Why am I so nasty to everyone? I can't chill out. It doesn't help to say to myself that it's just temporary discomfort, because I resent my time being stolen that I'll never get back.

Thanks for listening to my rant. I wish I was a nicer person, but she has fled the premises and left this sour crabapple instead.
pc

 

Thread

 

Post a new follow-up

Your message only Include above post


Notify the administrators

They will then review this post with the posting guidelines in mind.

To contact them about something other than this post, please use this form instead.

 

Start a new thread

 
Google
dr-bob.org www
Search options and examples
[amazon] for
in

This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | FAQ
Psycho-Babble Social | Framed

poster:partlycloudy thread:392569
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20040914/msgs/392569.html