Posted by iris2 on September 17, 2004, at 11:50:18
In reply to Re: I am so messed up !! » linkadge, posted by sooshi on September 15, 2004, at 21:21:15
> Hi linkadge,
>
> Without your wonderful and informative posts, this place would surely shut down, so please don't go anywhere....
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> I just have a little advice about school. It might not be any good, but here goes. I too was a straight A student in High School, only to totally "lose it" in college. I frickin' struggled and struggled, re-took classes, then started taking Incompletes, then took F's, then just gave up. Figured I'd go back once I got better. Well, that hasn't happened yet, and here I am at 40, and DOING JUST FINE!!! I got married, had kids, worked in the arts, and struggled like hell with a debilitating mental illness the whole darn time, all without that precious degree!
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> So, don't worry TOO much about that piece of paper, OK?
>
> Good luck,
> SooshiSooshi,
I feel so bad and stupid most of the time. I did well in high school too. In college I had it hard but did very well. I took a small schedule. The last semester I took in the second year I freaked out completely and failed a lot or just dropped the classes. How do I ever get over feeling so dumb. I have taken classes after I quit years ago and did fine but now I have trouble learning anything. Even how to use this board seems complicated. I got fired from one job because after I learned something on the job I could not remember how to do it the next day. I had become friendly with my supervisor but she did not understand how I could catch on faster than anyone else in the office yet have no knowledge of it the next day. She was told to fire me and I told her about my depression. She felt real bad because if she would have known they probably would not have fired me. She did tell me how perplexed she had been and she was glad I explained it to her. None of this makes me feel better. I feel like my depression has caused my brain not to function anymore. I cannot learn new things. I always feel like everyone around me is just so much more inteligent than I am. I have trouble reading too because my concentration is so bad. Sometimes I am unsure now how much is fear of failure and how much is an actual concentration and understanding of what I read problem.
I never talk about this to anyone because I am so ashamed of being so dumb or at least feeling that way.
Any suggestions?
irene
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