Posted by partlycloudy on September 14, 2004, at 14:15:59
In reply to Re: OK, I'll start. » partlycloudy, posted by iris2 on September 14, 2004, at 13:35:37
> Can you give me a link to where you posted about the EMDR. I have heard about this before and am interested in the therapy.
The main site is EMDR.com, and my therapist was trained by Francine Shapiro, who developed the tecchnique. It's often used for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, or PTSD - another acronym for you!
> Re: drinking. I know this routine. Are you hiding it from your husband? Or does he or you prefer you not to drink when he is there?
I admitted that I am hiding it from him about 2 months ago, which is when I started doing it a month before. It shamed me immensely to tell him, but I am trying to be as honest as I can. He was miffed I was buying my own instead of consuming what we already had, but then I didn't want him to know what I was doing. I do not pretend it isn't a problem, and the onlt time I drink when he's home is if he's taking a nap. Pretty sorry scenario.
>It is my personal experience that quitting an addiction has to be first and foremost a personal decision. For me for it to work it had to have some finality to it. If it does not interfere with a lot of functioning you probably do not have as much incentive to quit. I know it makes the depression worse. Have you ever quit long enough to see if it really made a significant difference in your depression or your life?
I went dry for a year and a half. I was actually cycling from depression to hypomania every few months. I was under the care of one practical nurse after another (never saw the same one twice), so I would start on an antidepressant, feel mich better after 4 months or so, taper off with their supervision, and eventually crash. What sent me for professional treatment was that the duration of being unmedicated and OK became shorter and shorter until I was basically crying all day long. I was given a dx that I outlined earlier, and started reading about the conditions.
I've made the decision to not drink just about every day for the last 10 years of my life. I have had varying success, lately NO success, as evident from my recent posts. I don't want to end up like my father - dead at 53 years of age, with 3 out of 4 children estranged (yes, I was the one still close to him); and I also know that not wanting to drink and not doing it are different issues. Hence my stepped up efforts with my therapists.
Irene - I truly value your opinions and insights, and although it might seem that I am baring my soul here in this very public forum, a big part of why I do this is to let others like me know they are not alone.
Thanks again,
pc
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