Posted by octopusprime on August 8, 2004, at 9:25:38
i've made a new friend. this is great, right?
well i feel like i shared too much too soon. we had a really heavy conversation about mental illness and it just cut a little bit too close to home and i got really upset (to the point of tears). and i told her about my friend that went missing (we were sitting at the beach adjacent to the lands where he went missing). she suspects something about me, but she doesn't know what the problem really is, i never told her.
i don't want to tell her. i haven't told anybody in real life i went back to treatment - not my mom or my sister or my old friends. i don't want to spoil my good mood for them. my out-of-control behaviour mostly manifests itself at work, but i think they're all nuts too and i haven't told anybody at work that i'm being treated either. (plus different people see different behaviours so they'd really have to sit down and compare notes to put it all together). it's like if i'm not depressed, and i can still get up and carry on like nothing happened for now, i should be able to carry this on my own.
but i can't. i need to tell people. and i just wound up hinting it to this woman i met only a few months ago and just barely know. what am i doing? am i going to ruin this friendship?
she's the girlfriend of somebody else i know. the three of us see each other every thursday in a group setting with several others. and now he might know too, but i told her to "use her best judgement" in sharing. i don't exactly want this to get back to everybody else in the group.
how do you decide what to share and when to share it? and how do you keep it from spilling out in less than ideal situations?
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