Posted by Cinderella on August 2, 2004, at 7:38:58
Well...I'm new here. It says for general support so I guess you could support me if you're strong enough. LOL. I only weigh about 106 lbs. I'll take money too if you have it. I'm depressed, tired, and hypochondriacal and that's the GOOD side of me. The bad side is I'm histrionic, narcissistic, dependent and completely a mess. I hate my job which is nursing which I have been doing for 18 years, my 17 year old daughter is a mess and has a tatoo and may not graduate high school because she can't pass math, and I am married to an over-critical, cranky, anti-social verbally abusive husband. (this is husband #2. husband #1 was a slacker, womanizer and alcoholic) Anti-depressants don't help me. They either send shock waves through my body and make me lose more weight or they make me constipated and genderless. My husband and I are competition swing dancers for a hobby but have moved up through the years into the higher levels where there is more pressure. This past weekend I performed one routine with him (we got last place) and 3 other routines with 3 other gentlemen and none of these I did well in either. Today, I am back at work at my regular job feeling exhausted, unsatisfied and unfulfilled. This Wednesday, my daughter and I are going to try to make it to midweek bible study. I'm sorry I missed church yesterday and went to dance competitions instead. The competitions lasted all weekend from Friday evening until 5pm yesterday. I feel really down today. It's a wonder I can hold myself up. I'm 43 and still dancing. Dancing is something I have done since I was 14. I've just never been able to make a living off it and now, my body is getting old. I have degenerative arthritis in my right pelvic bone from having scoliosis that was never discovered. I've been to 3 different specialists who have all treated me conservatively and said there isn't any surgical treatment for this; just phys. therapy, chiropracting an medicine; all of which I do but still there are days that I would like to crawl out of my skin and be somewhere else. I know...whine whine whine. I would never whine like this to people I know and none of you know me so I guess it is safe here. Thank you and God bless for reading this.
Me
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thread:373075
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