Posted by tampagirl70 on June 24, 2004, at 8:17:43
In reply to Re: Is it OCD? » justyourlaugh, posted by littlep24 on June 24, 2004, at 7:20:31
hi little -
as an ocd sufferer, i can relate to what you're going through. i've seen your responses to some of my posts and know you're having a hard time. are you on medication now and if so, what & what dose(s)? do you see a therapist and/or a psychiatrist? have you told them about how you're feeling?
i've always been too hard on myself and on top of that am very impatient. my life has been good and nonproblematic for about 4 years now, but recently i decided i didn't need my meds and went off of them. needless to say, i realize now that i need them and will probably always need them. i didn't want to accept that fact, that i needed a pill to make my brain "right", but it is what it is. so when i start obsessing, i start beating myself down, looking at all the things i've done that i shouldn't have done, or things i haven't done enough of (like calling my parents or grandmother), i start feeling like a failure for one reason or another, and i just keep spiraling downward into a pit of despair. it sucks and it seems like its never going to get better. but it got better before and i THINK its starting to get better again and will continue to get better.
i can't take advice or compliments very well, but i'm good at giving them: don't be so hard on yourself and remember, they're just kids, so anything you do for them will be spectacular.
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