Posted by littlep24 on June 22, 2004, at 8:58:05
I have such a hard time handling my daily affairs. I am suppose to be cleaning the house right now while the kids are at vacation bible camp. I look around and there is so much to get done because I haven't kept up with it I feel so overwhelmed and just want to cry. So the thought is to not let it get to the state it is at. However, on a daily basis I can't get done all the things that need to get done and I get depressed and less gets done. All I want to do right now is stay here and keep writing ( I complain too much about what is going on with me). I feel like I am trying to understand myself and why I can not handle situations. The day that I am accepted for who I am and able to fit in is the day that much of my stress will go away. Ruminating about the fact that I don't accomplish anything is not helping the matter. I am so twisted by if I would accomplish something I would feel more confident. My head actually hurts when I try to think about what needs to get done that I have to walk away. I also think I am gun shy to accomplish tasks because they will never be done correctly and I will feel more frustrated that I spent the time to do them. This is such little stuff that hampers me which makes it even harder for me, all I want to do is say oh well and go to sleep. I need to do these things.
poster:littlep24
thread:358955
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