Posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
well, i left this afternoon after many errands i hadn't expected to run (this made me frazzled and irritable, but some friends saw me off proper with some illegal plant matter that made me less irritable and much more relaxed). i made it to kansas city from lincoln by 9pm, however.
i stopped on the way and bought sobe "courage." i thought this might help.
i'm at my friend's house now. we had a great time talking and looking at pictures, but i'm still nervous about being here. really i'm only here two days, since i'm leaving thursday morning, but still. i worry about overstaying my welcome, about being seen as an idiot, about slipping and acting crazy, or not slipping but not being able to stay in control. i took my lamictal a few hrs late, and i pray i don't forget any meds while i'm in the presence of other people. the last thing i need is to start talking to myself or something equally insane.
anyhow. i'm alive. i'm reading the boards but i probably won't be posting much. trying to be a good guest and not be too nerdy. (but he's got wireless and i have my laptop!) i'm keeping a trip journal and am going to make a scrapbook when i get to my final destination, but i thought i'd record some of the thoughts that won't go into my journal (like the craziness) here. i don't know why. for my own personal knowledge, i guess. it's interesting to track my moods in my various posts and i haven't even been posting here long.
anyhow. i'm going to try to sleep. we'll see what tomorrow brings....
ghost
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