Posted by partlycloudy on June 21, 2004, at 18:57:23
In reply to Ironically... » partlycloudy, posted by Racer on June 21, 2004, at 18:33:24
It's so hard to go through a desolate time all alone. My husband, who is my staid defender, hasn't a clue about what my depression, mania, and panic does to me. He just supports me unconditionally, questioning only whether I'm safe or not. I find it difficult to be completely truthful even with him, trying to plaster that inane smile on my face while my lips tremble. What an act. The highs and lows of my past week have exhausted me. Please take good care of yourself and let others care, too.
And another 37 years on this earth is practically another life's worth of years (if you're not very well. Bad bad joke). It's not a sentence, it's a whole new chance every day to give something back, if we can spare it. And if you can't give, you ask. That's what being part of humanity is about for me.
Regarding our weather - I have been equating my emotional state with weather for a long time. Like a depressive episode is a front, mania is a high pressure system, the rest of the world lives in the jet stream, and I make hurricanes and tornadoes of myself trying to catch up to them.
Tonight, the seas are calm. Storms are offshore, the evening clouds are majestic and full of colours. We get great skies here. it should be a peaceful night.
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