Posted by Scott in Vermont on June 17, 2004, at 9:10:57
In reply to Re: Freeform Thoughts, posted by TexasChic on June 16, 2004, at 13:00:33
I am "irrational", in that I am thinking I can beat this down through tenacity and pure strength of will. I know that I have a medical condition. I'm much more rational today than I have been in a couple of weeks. I'm looking at my options, and while none of them are desirable, at least I'm considering things like short-term disability as opposed to just bulling and jamming my way through this and rely on my questionable ability to keep this squared away.
Today I am "better". Today I am thinking more clearly and I am focusing on options, and the consequense each option carries. But doing "nothing" is not an option.
I have told my girlfriend about what is happening, as well as my sister and my mother. And my friend Jon. And I told the truth. Not to frighten, but to be honest and to know that if (and I do mean "if", not "when") this gets worse, they will know what's happening, and if need be, know what to do.
I will survive. I will make it. I will get back on top of this and I will prosper again. I'm a good man, I have a good life, and I sincerely want to enjoy it.
Sorry for the scare. I haven't been my usual optimistic self. It's not a facade when I am happy and positive, that's really the "real" me. It's been really hard to hold on to that person recently, but I'm going to try harder and I'm going to consider all of my available options and then move forward with whatever (positive) choice I make. If I fall, I'll just get back up and try again. I have a lot of reasons to keep trying.
-Scott
poster:Scott in Vermont
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