Posted by octopusprime on May 9, 2004, at 17:20:03
In reply to My life theme: Constant abandonement, posted by Tina33 on May 9, 2004, at 16:32:16
Tina, i'm sorry to hear of your man troubles.
> Now, am I causing myself pain by having "certain" expectation of hearing "sorry"?
This. I think you need to have a discussion with your partner about it. Your partner may have honed in on the crisis at hand, he may have forgotten about your abandonment issues. He may have said sorry for his mistake and thought that covered everything.
I think it would help if you asked directly for the apology. Tell him how you felt when he left.
It concerns me if he's not apologizing for hurting your feelings. I hope you are in a relationship that is good for you.
> Please HEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP. The pain is unbearable that I wonder if I am a soul destined to live tormented and I beg God for death everyday because I am NOT suicidal like my mom.
And this. I'm sorry you are hurting. I don't believe any of us are destined for torment. I sincerely hope you live to see a day where you don't want to die. I hope you have a supportive pdoc/therapist that can help you through these feelings.
If I were to talk to God on your behalf, I would ask for the strength and courage to lift yourself up. And for a sunny day, a walk on the beach, ice cream, something (anything!) to remind yourself why being in the world of the living is a good thing. keep posting.
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