Posted by Jai Narayan on May 4, 2004, at 20:03:37
In reply to Abused as child...life in shambles, posted by devon00 on April 30, 2004, at 23:10:30
> I was emotionally abused as a child. I had a miserably unhappy childhood. My family has never acknowleged anything that happened.
*that happened to me as well.> Anyway, I have tried to move on as much as possible. The thing is that the abuse I suffered has affected almost every area of my life. My self esteem is horrible, it is very hard for me to trust people, I am stricken with shyness & anxiety in many situations, I question every move I make, I have difficulty trusting men and being warm and loving to someone when dating (because I'm so terrified of rejection)...the list is endless. I feel that my past will always color my future grey and try as I might, I cannot seem to develop self esteem, warmth and trust.
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*** I spent a few Years in therapy doing EMDR with my therapist and it worked like a charm. Most of the problems you are dealing with were the same for me. I was traumatized from womb to around age 38. I did the work and now I am a different person, I choose different people to relate with and my life is so good. I feel trust and love and am currently working on my sexuality...I was really abused.
So this is possible. Years ago I would have doubted it but now I am truly a different person and really feel safe, steady, relaxed, and confident.
poster:Jai Narayan
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