Posted by ramsea on April 26, 2004, at 13:26:14
In reply to Re: losing all my friends, posted by TexasChic on April 26, 2004, at 9:56:39
This will sound whining. I know how irritated people get when someone says stuff like I feel like saying. For starters I have lost all friends after a 2yr Mixed Episode; no one felt close enough to stick around. Fair enough. I am fortunate with my family--very understanding and supportive.
I can't even make friends in cyberspace though. I really have tried for four years, trying different groups. I have yet to have any sustained cyberfriend. And often in groups my posts get ignored and when I spend a lot of energy trying to support someone, it's good I don't expect a reply or note of teensy thanks, because usually they just skip over and don't make any direct comment. It feels cold, impersonal and lonely. Why do I bother? It is one of my only social outlets. So I talk to the screen. I am dipping a little too low in mood right now--maybe shouldn't say too much coz I may feel better tomorrow. I just feel so sad. This is a nasty mood state and I hope and pray it lifts soonbecause I have such low tolerance for high intensity sorrow. So bye for now, your friend (NOT!) ramsea, the one who tries harder, but gets less
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