Posted by karen_kay on April 9, 2004, at 18:08:31
In reply to JYL...it's a Spring day.., posted by jay on April 9, 2004, at 15:50:16
1. i went to see my pdoc today. he fit me in within the hour. he had on different clothes. he recently had a son who grunts often (takes after his dad). he smiled and talked aobut his son for quite a while. that brightened my day. i have the most lovely nurse in the world. i've lost weight since my last visit, even while wearing the biggest shoes in the world. my pdoc is very handsome when he smiles, and even when he frowns. he didn't make me wait very long at all. i'm not bloated like the girl i heard complaining in the other office :)
2. i saw a friend today who i've been avoiding during my 'episode' (as i'll call it). she's in love. she's filling my head with nonsense about love and happiness and GASP sex. she's gushing about her new boyfriend. she's literally glowing. she asked me if i've lost weight. i asked her if she's lost weight. we talked and caught up. i invited her over tonight, even though i still don't want to see people. it'll do me some good to hopefully have some nice, pleasant thoughts rub off on me.
3. i went to class today. we watched a cartoon in german. two men sitting in a bathtub. at first, the prof only showed words. i thought i would cry. i almost did. he asked me if i was ok. i thought i would cry again, because it seemed he cared. but, he explained what the words meant. and i realized we weren't supposed to know what they meant. i'm not nearly as far behind as i thought. ahhhhhhhh! what a relief!
4. i'm attempting to bring back the michael jackson look. white socks with black shoes. someone else help me out here. one person alone can't do it. or can she?
5. my friend called today. she's getting kicked out of her house with no where to go. i put my problems on hold to help her. i calmed her down. i told her how proud of her i was. i told her that she had a place to go, even if she didn't like it. and that it was a test to learn more aobut herself. she agreed. she thanked me. i felt better about myself. sheesh, she makes me feel smart. now, why is it that i ever argued with her in the first place? i love that girl. i feel bad for arguing with her while i visited her. so, maybe i am wishy washy.... but, she knows i'm smart. at least we can agree on that. and she does call me when she needs help.
6. the little things. men in suits. women with dogs. children in cafes who turn around and play peek-a-boo. baby powder. water. coffee. topamax. books. university, and the opportunity to go. my parents. wonderful people. very wonderful people. amazing people. poetry. art. music that rips at your heart. people who write music for you. music that inspires you to dance, even when you don't know how. people who inspire others to write music. shoes. fire. passion. letters. voices. the banjo. my sisters. babble. my dog. my mail carrier. the garbage collector. the police officer who waved at me today and made me smile even when i didn't want to. camus. bukowski. bubba. my landlords. paris. email. the telephone and people who i talk to on it. that lovely nurse who said i never complain. the lady who's bloated. my pdoc's son. santa claus. joe camel. vegas. and this could go on forever...
7. i watched a movie called the big kahuna. kevin spacey is in it with danny devito. it's very good. small, indy film. very good. made me think about my point when i talk to other people. again, very good. glad i watched it.
8. i love my dog. and i try to be the person my dog thinks i am. i believe that every day i am closer and closer to becoming that person. in fact, i'm almost there.
9. my parents never taught me to "never talk to strangers" i'm glad
10. i'm going to call my friend and find out where the public library is. also, i talked my old man into reading "the stranger" by camus!!! oh, i'm so excited!!! yahh--oooo!!
poster:karen_kay
thread:334557
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