Posted by deirdrehbrt on March 31, 2004, at 21:08:00
While I was in the hospital, I wrote an 11 page letter to my parents. I mailed it, but intercepted it at home on Tuesday. After some supportive words in a telephone call, I gave it to my parents. Well, they got it Tuesday evening.
Wednesday, morning, Wednesday noon, nothing. Wednesday evening, nothing. It's as if they haven't even looked at it.
I try to say to myself that they were busy, I try to say that it's really long, and maybe they haven't read it. I try to convince myself that peeling the walpaper in the kitchen is really important, and that maybe this letter is too much to deal with.
You know what? Maybe the honest answer is that it just isn't important enough to them. Maybe they don't want to know what's really going on with their kid. Maybe they think I'm just plain crazy. Maybe they think the people I'm working with to get better don't know anything.
I know that if I got a letter like this from my kids, from anyone I care about, I would have read it by now. I would have talked to them by now.
It sucks, but my parents have let me down, and let me down in a very big way. It hurts, alot. I guess that it's really time to admit this. I can maybe recognize them as simply ignorant, and not blame them. In the end though, the simple truth is that I haven't been able to depend on them, I can't now, and I'll likely not be able to in the future. I hope I'm better thAn that for my kids.
Dee.
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