Posted by psychogirl on February 29, 2004, at 7:24:34
In reply to Re: psychogirl...cont. » psychogirl, posted by B2chica on February 28, 2004, at 17:54:19
Hope you had a good night. You know it's funny, how you can feel positive about things one moment, and then totally anxious ridden the next. Once again, I'm obsessing about going to work Monday and losing my voice. It consumes me. My Celexa dosage is way too low, and it simply doesn't take the obsessive feelings away. I think I told you how my mouth dried out when they tried to increase my dosage, so they brought me back down to 20 mg, which is nothing. So every day before work, I pop 2mg of Ativan, and it relaxes me just fine. But the obsession is still there, which I think is really half the problem. My stomach is in knots just thinking about it, and I don't know how to control it except to just try to laugh it off. I tell myself, if I lose my job, it's meant to be. Maybe it would be a relief in some ways. Maybe I need to do a job with less pressure.Should I feel like there are some things that are out of my control, like my anxiety? Or should I believe that I can control it? I don't know. Either way, I feel helpless. Am promising myself that I'm going to have a great day with the kids.
by the way, i checked out dystonia. It scares the hell out of me. But I definitely have some matching symptoms. My shrink used to say that I have globus hystericus...or a lump in my throat caused by anxiety.....could this be almost related, or is dystonia purely a nervous system problem? I looked at some of the cures like botox injections to the vocal chords, and that freaked me out. I hope to hell it's a lot simpler than that.
Hope you have a good day.
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