Posted by deirdrehbrt on February 15, 2004, at 13:25:10
In reply to Re: Theory on SI, posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 15, 2004, at 3:23:46
I don't know either, what might cause it. Perhaps it has something to do with discovering that an injury can dull the emotional pain that we feel.
If I am cutting, or whatever, then no-one in the world has to know what I'm really feeling. I can deal with the pain all by myself. I can let out as much or as little as I want. I can bleed or not. I can bruise myself, break valuable objects, give myself frost-bite, whatever I want. Then when I'm done, I can go to bed, and not worry about what other people might think. (I usually do SI at night).
I guess that's the big part for me. I have a hard time letting people know how bad I feel. Even when I'm sobbing and crying, there is always the part that I don't say. Maybe it's the unsaid parts that are the fuel for the SI furnace. Who knows?
Dee.
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