Posted by Miller on February 12, 2004, at 22:08:58
Justyourlaugh and Dinah and everyone else:
Today I got an email from an old friend asking me to post here today. It was ironic because just the other day I got an email from an old friend from here. I wish I could express how much it means to me to get the emails. Even when I don't have the strength to write back, I charish the messages. In fact, if you must know, I haven't been able to delete them yet. I need them.
There was a time when I needed to post here every five minutes or so. Now, I can't get myself to even come here at all.
It has nothing to do with all of you. There is something in my heart that needs to be fixed. My soul is crying. I am trying to hear what the tears say, but I haven't been able to yet. I have a feeling that until I know, I will have to continue on my lonesome journey.
I must thank everyone. The last time I was here, I had burned the most important bridge I had ever been on. I told my beloved shrink that I was done. He is my lifeline. (He also happens to be the biggest frustration in my life as well.) Because of the responses and warmth you all shared with me, I swallowed my pride and he let me back in. --That's the funny thing about shrinks. I have yet to see one beg for a return, but they always welcome the homecoming. Hummmm...
I miss you all very much. Boo--I love and miss you. Dinah--I hope you are well. And no, you have never offended me. To both--I am so grateful to have you in my life. I am lucky that you both have allowed me the spce to try to get myself together.
Wish me luck.
-Miller
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