Posted by John2222 on January 19, 2004, at 20:23:35
I've had sort of a mild to moderate depression off and on for last couple years. It really intensified after 9/11--I just couldn't seem understand the injustice of it, and couldn't get out of the doldrums.
Although I'm feeling better, my question is:
Why do I keep going back to sad things and sad thoughts? I recently saw "In Love and War" on tv again, and can't get it out of my mind. I seem drawn to it. The themes of love, longing, parting, angst in this setting of war romance. I wonder how much Ernest Hemingway felt himself when writing the book and his life.
I want to escape these thoughts but sometimes I feel like I am just "drawn" to the depressive thoughts..almost like I want them, like I want to feel sad.
Anyone else have triggers? Some have said I shouldn't be so sensitive. sigh...
...thanks for listening...
john
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