Posted by Emme on December 21, 2003, at 13:06:01
In reply to Ability for feeling Happiness?, posted by KellyD on December 20, 2003, at 22:46:16
> However, am I the only one who feels, even in a recovering state, that their ability to really feel happines is forever diminished? Not gone, but very altered? The "high" is a lot lower than it was at one time?
I was just thinking about it this week. I laugh if something is very funny. But I cannot conceive of feeling *real* joy again, or any kind of lasting contentment, or feeling of safety for that matter. Perhaps I'm not in recovery as much as I hoped I was.
> Mine feels due to grief over a huge, traumatic loss 5 1/2 years ago more so than from my mental illness, but it is a a tangable thing to me - this lowered ability.
> No amount of meds, therapy, whatever... feels like it will matter or has mattered.I understand. I feel grief from something that happened 12 years ago, and much as I have tried in therapy, I haven't been able to really get past it. It's added what seems to be a permanent component of sadness to my world.
> I'm I just weird?
No, you're not. I wondered if I was a bit weird this way. Sounds like I have some company. And as Dinah pointed out, this time of year makes things harder and sadder.
Have you read the Harry Potter books? Maybe we've been attacked by dementors.
Hugs to you and to everyone.
Emme
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