Posted by Poet on November 26, 2003, at 9:42:51
In reply to support needed/hope/my story, posted by lepus on November 25, 2003, at 17:56:19
Hi Lepus,
My therapist keeps reminding me that I'm not a failure because I keep on trying no matter how hurt I am.
I think you're like that, too, even though your jobs don't last years, you keep going for them. The same thing with school, you keep trying.
I understand the feeling that the light at the end of the tunnel always goes out just before you reach it. Most of the time I think my tunnel caved in and I'm trapped forever.
I'm trying to tell myself when failure mode kicks in that self esteem has to come from within and the perfect job won't give it to me.
A brief history: I have a four year degree, am finishing a certificate program in the field I wish I worked in. For nine years, I had what I thought was the perfect job and I got canned by the new owners of the company for no reason. I took what I consider a temp job with benefits four years ago and am sitting in that dark tunnel trying to dig my way out. It's a slow dig, but I'm not giving up.
Poet
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