Posted by kara lynne on November 4, 2003, at 14:08:31
In reply to Re: My safety feels threatened, need advice. » kara lynne, posted by Wildflower on November 4, 2003, at 9:47:23
--If moving is not an option, you may want to look into buying an air sanitizing unit (that removes the smoke from the air) along with some good earplugs. I know it sounds horrible but it may provide some relief to you.--
Dear Wildflower,
That doesn't sound horrible at all--why would it? I have foam earplugs sitting by my bed and an Ionic Breeze that someone gave me just for that purpose. My mother called last night and said she was sending away for another for me.Why I can't move: Truthfully no reason is good enough when you're talking about personal safety, although when I read those suggestions (good ones I might add) my heart sank a little. I've moved twice in the last 6 months, breaking up with my boyfriend and fininshing school. This place was a good find that was never listed officially because it is so affordable. My friends's client informed her incidentally that she was moving and that's how I found out about it. I called the landlord that night and he agreed to my moving in, without a last month's rent or deposit of any kind. If the neighbor's weren't there it would truly be a blessing. But they are.
My counselor seems to think the landlord is looking to get them out. And he did come immediately out Sunday (although I didn't know it at the time) to talk to them which says something, even though it may end up working against me. The landlord's wife has said 'hang in' to me each time I've called, almost indicating it was just a matter of time before they do. But we all know that time could be years. Still, if possible I would prefer not to move right now, especially now that I'm suddenly facing all these financial stressors. So I'd like to see if I can come up with some things to say to myself if I see them hunkering by. I wish I could get myself out of the fear state because I know that attracts more trouble.
I was thinking this morning that the bottome line may be that I feel I did something 'wrong' and maybe that's the basis for the extremity of fear: Maybe the kid really was ok, maybe I should have just asked him not to sit on the bench, etc.etc.etc. But I was intimidated because the father was out there with him, swearing and pis*ing on his territory. Then I'm trying to maintain a strategic mindset if I'm confronted by one of them; maybe I could say I called the landlord about something entirely different and happened to ask who the bench belonged to because I heard conflicting information about it (the last part is true, the woman who lived here before said it belonged to the landlord--not true). Then I could say I thought the little girl did live there--and maybe if she had spoken to me I would have known differently. Only I wouldn't say that. But I feel like saying it works both ways on the streets (!) and if the little ***** had said hello and been decent to me it might have worked in their favor.
See I swear too. I have nothing against swearing, but when it's not peppered with any articulatable English in between it just isn't the same. This has really made me aware of how vulgar swearing comes across as a dietary mainstay.
Thank you so much for your suggestions. I never thought of keeping a log, that's a good idea and I will begin one today. God willing I will never need it. Maybe I will ultimately have to move--when it gets to the point of keeping a police log it may be unavoidable. But I'd like to hold out at least a little while if I can.
Thanks again.
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