Posted by Emme on October 27, 2003, at 14:47:21
In reply to Re: All you need is love (hum to Beatles tune) » Emme, posted by justyourlaugh on October 27, 2003, at 9:51:35
> emme,,
> my social worker said that i "created" this illness when i was a wee child because i didnt have healthy ways of dealing with things...
> i feel he passed me a plate of guilt and a big glass of shame...:(Ewwww....retroactively condemned as a little kid. I hope you didn't stay with him long.
I do find that I'm always on the alert worrying that people will pass judgment on me. I may be a little paranoid about it. At least my father's wife was willing to revise her theory. A few weeks ago she said she understood how I feel - this without any evidence that she's ever had a major depression. Tough times yes, but mood disorder no. She means well.
> will a man heal my past?
Hmm... not totally heal the past, but maybe help the present. Extra companionship, extra distraction, and a little romance can't hurt. Of course I know a man can't remove my problems and I know the depression needs to be under enough control for me to even interact with someone.
Okay, I'm rambling. I went to the library today and sat down and worked for a few hours. Now I have to follow my therapist's orders and pat myself on the back. :)
Emme
poster:Emme
thread:273853
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20031020/msgs/273988.html