Posted by KimberlyDi on September 12, 2003, at 15:07:02
In reply to Really Screwing Up At Work, posted by Susan J on September 11, 2003, at 9:44:19
Susan,
I know that feeling of panic. While Effexor was helping me with anxiety and depression, my performance was suffering badly at work. My brain was fuzzy, global thinking overwhelmed me, and the slightest obstacles had me in tears. Once I was put on Strattera to help me focus, my work performance improved. I've thought for a long time that I had a touch of ADD/ADHD. My son does too.KDi in Texas
> I need help or I'm going to lose my job. I've been struggling with depression for a year and a half. I've had it before, but never this bad. Last summer was torture, crying ALL the time, couldn't focus, didn't do anything but lay on the couch. I came into work every day because if I stayed home alone I wanted to die.
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> Last summer, at my lowest, I was actually getting some work done, though. Not quickly, but at least by deadlines.
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> This summer, when I seem to feel a little better (not crying *every* day, no suicidal thoughts), I can't concentrate at work at all! I have one set of projects that I haven't even started since April, and I don't know why nobody has said anything to me. I know I should do them, but I feel paralyzed about dealing with them. I'm paralyzed from starting a lot of things that scare me. I have two projects ahead of me, not in my subject area, that I'm terrified to start, cuz I don't know *where* to start....
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> End result, I'm not doing nearly as much work as I need to do. My boss knows I'm dealing with depression and seems to be understanding, but I haven't talked to him lately about it.
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> I mean, it's absolutely TERRIFYING to me I can't make my brain work right to get my work done. After all, I get PAID to use my brain. That's all I'm supposed to do.
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> Is this type of fear of starting a project for fear of failure, etc. a normal symptom of depression? What can I do to cope? My therapist really hasn't given me much guidance here. Have any of you dealt with this? What did you do?
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> I'm single. I'm the only paycheck. I have a house I don't want to lose. A way of life I don't want to lose. ??
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> Please.....any thoughts would be really appreciated.....
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> Susan
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