Posted by fallsfall on August 17, 2003, at 7:12:40
I will see my therapist in 2 days, 4 hours.
This is hard. I didn't get to bed until 1 last night because my daughter and her friend came home late. I got up at 5:30 to visit the bathroom and she and her friend were still talking. This really made me angry - she's staying up until all hours and then I try to wake her at noon and she won't get up. So I couldn't go back to sleep, and then my legs started hurting, and then I was hungry so I came downstairs to get some breakfast and found that one of my darling dogs had decorated the carpet for me.
I'm crabby (really?). I want to be taken care of. I want someone to be in control, 'cause I'm sure not. I want to know that I'm not going to just implode and wind up a puddle on the ground.
I'm reading a book by Erikson - my therapist recommended him. Turns out that my therapist did some of his training at a center where Erikson spent a lot of his time. It is interesting and readable.
Dinah, I didn't pick up the phone, but I do miss my old therapist's comfort. I don't miss the pain, however.
I don't know whether to journal or not. Journalling helps me work through things. But I'm afraid that I'll just figure out how bad it really is, and that would be a bad thing. This way I can try to muddle through without thinking about it, and maybe I'll make it to Tuesday Noon.
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